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September 2010
84 posts
Psychologist-“Have you ever had a boyfriend you can depend on?”
Me-“No, not really.”
Psychologist-“Do you want one?”
Me-“What girl doesn’t?”
Psychologist-“Good answer.”
I hate how doctors think that bumping my meds up by 25mL is suddenly going to fill my world with rainbows and unicorns. I think not. And by telling me try and just do it isn’t going to make me able to do it, i physically can’t! The doctors don’t get that.
August 2010
61 posts
Smoking is the only thing that makes me feel how a normal human being should feel, its like a religion to me. and I wish I was healthy too but i’m not which is why i can’t do the bestfriend stuff you want, i hide how seriously sick I am. I’m possibly depressed again, and the only thing that will make me feel better is being in Colorado with my cousin, its not my fault that that is what makes me the happiest, it just does.
I’m never going to leave you, Renee. You’re the one that’s going to leave me for your cousin and Colorado. You told me to tell me when you’re hurting me, and all you can ever talk about is Colorado and how much you miss your cousin. IT HURTS. I just want to be missed by you because you’re my…
Because then the next day you realize the person wasn’t hot really at all….
Fuck me.
That I threw up from smoking to much last night….
So take me as I am or leave me.
Simple.
Dont get mad at me for being me, not cool.
I’ll know what’s wrong with me, or at least be in the process of figuring it out.
It hurts that people don’t realize I physically CAN’T do the stuff they want to all the time because of the disorder and disease or whatever the fuck i have, especially my bestfriend….
I threw up…
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