ॐ What Is This World? ॐ: Archive

Trichotillomania

Is the most annoying disorder i have and the fact that I’ve only developed it in the last month and I already have huge gaps in my eye lashes, cool.

Jul 29th

#11 I Confess...

I truly feel grateful and special that people ACTUALLY missed me when I was gone, thank you for showing me I do matter in your lives. <3

Jul 25th

Blue Blanket by Andrea Gibson.

READ THIS, IT’S MY NEW FUCKING FAVORITE. AT LEAST READ THE BOLD PARTS, THEY ARE MY FAVORITE.<3 Still there are days when ther is no way, not even a chance, that I’d dare for even a second Glance at the reflection of my body in the mirror and she knows why. Like I know why she only cries when she feels like she’s about to lose control. She knows how much control is...

Jul 24th

I Have to Go Back To Reality.

In 2 days. It seems so surreal, I just wish I could stay. But I know I can’t, not right now anyways. I still have things to do in Arizona before I’m ready to move. But I guess I’m okay with going back just because the day after I have Workshop for 6 days. I can’t wait to find myself during that week. Every summer I find who I have become since last summer all because of...

Jul 23rd

I. Hate. How.

If I don’t take my pills I feel so fucking terrible and want to kill everyone. I wish the chemicals in my brain were normal so I wouldn’t have these fucking pills.

Jul 23rd

I. Can't .Decide.

What’s going on in my mind. The only thing I’m sure of that is going threw my mind is the line “I am a mountain that has been moved, I’m a river that’s all dried up” Besides that I’m clueless. All I want is a little sanity and stability. But I could never have that.

Jul 18th

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Jul 18th

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#10 I Confess…

I wish to experience everything in life, good or bad, I want to go through everything. Is that unhuman of me to want to experience all the bad things life can give? And if I grow up and be a bum with no home I’ll be content, as long as I’ve gone through life and stayed strong and have had a lot of experiences and wisdom then I will be proud of myself.

Jul 17th

Instead of Sleeping

Instead of sleeping I lay here on my vacation asking myself what could possibly happen next because I have no idea what lies ahead of me not even what is to come in a week. I feel like I’m blind because I can’t see ahead, not even a few days from now. There are so many situations and so many different ways they can go. Instead of sleeping I also lay here worried about my family. I...

Jul 17th