July 2010
20 posts
June 2010
36 posts
#10 I Confess...
It bugs me that I can never know how I look from another person point of few, there is only so many of my body parts I can see. (besides mirrors but they still don’t show me what i look like doing different things like walking!)
Dressing different
I’m dressed different today in hopes that at some point I won’t be me anymore.
Everytime.
People tell me they care in a very straight forward sincere way, I cry. I’m not sure if I’m just touched because NO ONE EVER DOES THAT, it only happened to me for the first time yesterday, or i cry because i feel like I don’t deserve their caringness.
I FUCKING HATE MYSELF.
The thing that hurts me most, the people in the last two days who’ve told me they care is: a girl...
Everyone has a problem with me, dgaf :D will write about it tomorrow
BOYS.
One minute you sweet, the next (with your friends) you’re a dick.
Cool.
RANT.
I can’t fucking do this.
I don’t know what’s raging inside me.
I want to throw up.
I have lost control over my life, why? how? I don’t know.
I have to grow up now, not because I want to like I chose to do many years ago, but because I have to. And that scares the fuck out of me… I have a job interview tomorrow and honestly I don’t want to go. I’m...
Don't Leave Me Anymore
I read the stuff you wrote to me when I’m sad or missing you. I forget how much loving you has a burden on me. Everyone can feel you in my room, everyone knows it is you. Does that mean I have to face the fact that you are for sure dead?
I won’t believe it till I am at your grave.
I won’t give up hope.
#9 I Confess...
I have been smoking like 9 bowls I day. I can’t wait to do this when I’m older but secretly I’m frightful of the effect of smoking so much in my future. As well as cigarettes.
Reblog if you want somebody to hold you for 20...
beautifulbeautifulbones:
beauty-inthe-breakdown:
(via blindthoughts, theworldisspinning)
I want to meet someone who looks like him… same eyes, same hair, same smile. Same amazing sense of humor, but also the serious, dependable, caring side. I want him to smell the same, look the same, act the same, BE the same. The only difference? I want him to love me back… For once.
-PostSecret
#8 I Confess...
Knowing that my bestfriend needs me and I can’t be there makes me really angry, the next best thing is being there for her mom. Which I am trying to do. I wish my bestfriend would get better, I know what she’s going threw<333
I Was A Paranormal Child.
I love when my mommy tells me stories about the weird shit i said as a kid.
My mom and dad were giving my sister and I a bath, I was like 4, and the water was coming out cold, my dad thought it was the water heater. I said check the pilot light (I am now 14 and have no idea what a pilot light is but it is apparently a light that heats water) and it infact was the pilot light.
I also saw brake...
I Should Be Dead
1. smoked. 2. consumed alcohol. 3. slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex. 4. slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex. 5. kissed someone of the same sex. 6. had sex. 7. had someone in your room other than family. 8. watched porn. 9. bought porn. 10. tried drugs. TOTAL: 8
1. taken painkillers. 2. taken someone else’s prescription medicine. 3. lied to...
#7 I Confess...
I don’t think my dad’s drinking has bothered me more than it does now. He’s drunk 24/7, throwing up and passing out. He has now started being very very very mean to me when he’s drunk (he used to be a fun one) and is doing all this shit while friends are over, you fucking wonder why i don’t ever bring people over…. But I really don’t know how long I can...
#6 I Confess...
This summer a lot of people have been asking me to hang out and do stuff with them, this has never happened to me before and its quite flattering. But honestly, it’s alot of work and I’m used to being a social outcast so being around people 24/7 makes me anxious cause I’m not home.
